Friday, August 22, 2008
im like so tired! but i refuse to slp... i duno... life at work has been pretty busy.. in fact too busy tt im kinda losing touch with my gmail (daily routine/ritual) and i duno everything?...
im kinda getting a little too short tempered these days... i wonder isit frm the work or wad... i seriously hope is cux of the work n not other things... i mean my life is boring... it's just e situation tt im in now is a teeny weeny more complicated... too complicated for me to handle... so many pple say my situation is tricky... anyways... i can officially say now even my sis has went over to the good side? haah... left only 1 and only 1 person in the dark side??? i believe e person know wad isit for la... in any case, when the whole world (not exactly, but pple who care abt u) wants u to act in a certain way, how can you resist acting in tt way? but for me... even i myself want it to b as easy as the rest say but in actual fact it's not tt easy... all thanks to my willpower n determination n e small(extreme small) feeling of happiness at some times... i guess my occupation has gotta change from slacker to d*****t....
i miss andy and diana so much... long time nvr see them... everytime i wanna call andy to tell him things i get sidelined or i just tell myself dun bother him with such random stuff... for me... im kinda over the tell my sis thingy... cux she simply cannot be trusted... i have had 1st hand experience... but when im unable to tell andy n diana abt stuff my sis becomes my choice liao... of cux i got someone else to talk to la... as in thru email style or in classrms... haha... but still... i miss my besties and my originally thot to be safe sis... hais... i duno la... im just not in the right state to type things now simply cux i duno wad im typing alr... nites...
i kinda feel bad... playing along is not exactly my forte and not something tt i wld like to do but yet i did! ifeel like crap now...
tmr go watch fireworks... im damn heng... seriously... quite excited abt the fireworks part... hope it brings back good memories of Disney... but how i wish a certain someone will b thr with me... hais... wadever la... i kinda feel v disappointed in myself anyways... it's like the current situation or status tt it's in dosen't reflect or give full credit to the stuff tt u do... ergh! to say again... feel like beating myself up! hmmph!
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